August 17, 2015

Senior Year Morning.

It is the morning of another journey back up to BYU-Idaho where I am very close to being done. I am hoping that this is my last fall semester at this particular establishment, but you never know. I always feel very lethargic when making this trip. Thinking of the past and the future. In this case I would be thinking about the past summer I had. And all that came with it. I know that I was blessed many times to be able to have the summer I did.

One highlight of the summer was being able to spend some of it with my sister. I love seeing her grow up. She is such an example to me when I think about how we use to be, (I'm sure you all can relate) it makes me very happy that we became friends and now would choose to spend time with each other over many things. She truly is one of the funniest, wittiest, cleverest, most caring, kind hearted souls I have ever come in contact with. She feels deeply and writes beautifully. I am so glad I got to see her on stage in Beauty and the Beast. I could feel her energy from the audience and I don't doubt that she gave it her all every night. She is seriously so beautiful.

Another highlight, that in the moment I wasn't so keen about, was working. There are many things I enjoyed about this job I had. I worked at a mine and I enjoyed the things I learned about myself there, I learned that I can wake up every morning at 4:45 if I go to bed early, and I am able to do both. I learned that I can deal with awful bosses who I just don't get along with. I learned that my dad is one of the best bosses in the world, and has made himself an amazing name at this company. I learned that God truly does hand pick people to put in your life when He knows you will struggle. I think about it now and...you know those things that in the moment you think it would never end and you pray every night that something will happen and you will get put in a different situation magically? Well that is how I felt all summer about this job. But! Looking back, (as it always happens) I chose to only see the good, as it should be. I hope that I am able to do that with every job.

The biggest highlight of this summer was every night, every second, I got to spend with the love of my life. For his willingness to move down to my hometown with me. I love every single time I was able to connect with him. What he taught me about myself this summer. i love him for that. But you all already know how I feel about him so go read it in another post. But I do know that that was my biggest highlight.

I hope for my future, my near future. That I am able to, find a wedding dress, plan my wedding, eat/cook good food, figure out how to love cooking, get really fit, make some more money, become closer to my Savior, not miss David too much, become reacquainted with myself, and help David as much as I possibly can.

I really am excited for this semester and all that it will bring. I hope that I can just become a little better, help some people, and eat lots of good food. Mandarin here I come.

David, I miss you my love.

August 16, 2015

People.

I wanted to continue on my "Beautiful People" post and talk about some more people in my life. 

Jacquelyn Dalquhist. I tell her daily, that she is one of the weirdest people I have ever met. I guess what I mean to say to her is that she astounds me with some of her comments. They are some of the funniest things I have ever heard a person speak in my life. But this summer of my life would have been drastically different without her there. She has a light, and in the LDS church you hear this often. But in her case, it is truly a sight that you see and feel. Jackie is so positive it makes me want to be a better, happier person. I am very grateful for her in my life. 

David Clifton Hartshorn. People often ask me, what I love most about David, and you know what? The best answer I have is that "I love David, because he loves me, and the Lord so much." But I don't think it makes sense to people how important that is to me. I feel like I am changing my life for this man and I wouldn't do so for someone I didn't think loved me very much. In this case people, he acts on it every single day of his life. He strives to be better. I love how he makes me feel, that I am never bored of him, that I laugh at his silliness, that he always says hi back. David has given me a life that I never thought possible. Sure I imagined my life as a happy one, but this way I never thought would be my life. I am just more at peace with the world and all that is in it, when I know that he is near and watching me. I know that David loves me. I know that he loves his Savior, Jesus Christ. I know that he would do anything for both of us, and because of that I am more than willing to do all I can to make him as happy and loved as he has made me. He honestly is the best thing that has happened to me. I love you Cliff. 

I hope that as I write the next few months that you all will feel my emotions. That I will be able to express myself. I am very closed off as of recently, and wish to be more open and loving. I hope I am able to serve. 

I hope you all know how lucky you are to be alive. Remember that. Feel all you are wishing for. Do all you are able. Love as much as you possibly can.