No sun.

So I'm sitting here listening to music and I thought it would be a good day to write someone brought up my blog a couple days ago and I thought it would be a good idea to write..so here we go. I haven't been very happy these past few months..I just kinda feel like I should be doing something or I feel like I shouldn't be doing anything. I have always had these "passions" that I love and lately I feel like they mean nothing to me anymore..like I shouldn't be doing it. Then I think to myself what the heck am I thinking? (you guys ever feel like that?). Well when this happens I usually just think to my self that I need to just snap out of it and get back on track, watch an inspirational movie or listen to something that would give me some sort of purpose. I have been trying to get my life back on track lately and I think the best place to start is the home. I haven't been the best daughter/sister, but I try my hardest. I think to myself sometimes that what would be different if I didn't have these parents/sisters/brothers/friends etc. I know that it would be different. but would it be a different life I would be living or would I still have some of the same things? I guess you will never know. I had this dream last night that my friend cut off my hair. It was a nightmare. I was seriously freakin out when I woke up. Dreams and me haven't been getting along to well lately either.

I love days when there is no sun for days..and you just curl up on your couch watch your christmas tree twinkle with hot chocolate. I think there are some things to live for and I know that is one of them.