It's weird how you can feel fine one day and then the next have your whole world change. Things are never going to be the same for me. Weather things turn out the way I think they will or not. My beloved David and I are no more. As much as I love that man, and still do, I know that this is what is right.
Time. It is the most painful thing in the world at times. It is also the best healing mechanism we humans have. I mean we can't mend a broken arm like they do in Harry Potter. In those movies you still can't bring back the dead. That one I'm afraid has always and will always be permanent. Same with a broken hearts. These are things even humans can't see with their own eyes. We are blinded to how these things really truly work. That is why we cannot fix them, and probably never will. It is comforting at times to know that you aren't the only person who has gone through things like this. I know that for me, I have heard everyone's story about how they knew someone or they themselves went through a broken engagement, and they offered their remedies to this heart wrenching experience such as: chick-flics, ice cream, costa vida binge, working all the time, being busy, and many more. In my experience I kinda had all of these. I am still going through it. I just can't seem to stop myself, but think about him all the time. I guess that's what happens when you are in love. I was talking to my brother about it, and he and I decided that love freaking sucks. A lot.
Back to time and the oddness of it all. I know that things can only get better from where I am. Because really guys? I have hit my rock bottom. But, my brother came home early to be with me and I have my sister. I know that they love me very much and that is all I need right now. I miss my David with all my heart and body, and soul. But I also trust that my life is mapped out, and if this is a part of it, then so be it! Allonz-y baby!!
I do, however, love you David Shannon/Science. And I know that you are still in love with me too. Things will work out. No matter what. If you're reading this, know that I am still here. I know that I am already starting to heal. I also know that things can go either way at this point.
But there is absolutely no pressure, cause that was our destruction last time.
I am getting happier.
Time. It is the most painful thing in the world at times. It is also the best healing mechanism we humans have. I mean we can't mend a broken arm like they do in Harry Potter. In those movies you still can't bring back the dead. That one I'm afraid has always and will always be permanent. Same with a broken hearts. These are things even humans can't see with their own eyes. We are blinded to how these things really truly work. That is why we cannot fix them, and probably never will. It is comforting at times to know that you aren't the only person who has gone through things like this. I know that for me, I have heard everyone's story about how they knew someone or they themselves went through a broken engagement, and they offered their remedies to this heart wrenching experience such as: chick-flics, ice cream, costa vida binge, working all the time, being busy, and many more. In my experience I kinda had all of these. I am still going through it. I just can't seem to stop myself, but think about him all the time. I guess that's what happens when you are in love. I was talking to my brother about it, and he and I decided that love freaking sucks. A lot.
Back to time and the oddness of it all. I know that things can only get better from where I am. Because really guys? I have hit my rock bottom. But, my brother came home early to be with me and I have my sister. I know that they love me very much and that is all I need right now. I miss my David with all my heart and body, and soul. But I also trust that my life is mapped out, and if this is a part of it, then so be it! Allonz-y baby!!
I do, however, love you David Shannon/Science. And I know that you are still in love with me too. Things will work out. No matter what. If you're reading this, know that I am still here. I know that I am already starting to heal. I also know that things can go either way at this point.
But there is absolutely no pressure, cause that was our destruction last time.
I am getting happier.
