So I have been thinking a lot recently, about so many things. Have you ever been just having like a bad day, one after the other? Well, I kinda feel like that has been happening, but then something good happens to me and I don't freak out as much as I did. I know that my life is so much better than people's in Japan right now, My house is intact (now if I want to be in it is a different story), I have a family (and do they bug me sometimes/all the time? Yes.), I have a wonderful family who does support me..most of the time, but there are those little things that happen to you and you feel like the world is going to all come tumbling down right on top of you, and fear, fear is what scares us the fear of losing one of those things, fear of being alone, fear of being rejected, fear of whatever may scare the crap out of you. But for me, I think my biggest fear is and always will be, being alone. Not just physically, cause I'm alone all the time, no I'm talking about when you are mentally alone. Thinking that if you never returned, (heaven forbid) that no one would miss you if you left, I think that would be the worst feeling in the world, but I may be wrong different people have different thoughts on the worst feeling. When I was a kid, I use to have bad dreams that I would get kidnapped from my family, and it would scare me out of my mind to the point when I was afraid to go to bed at night, I knew that nothing would happen to me, but still scared me thinking about it. Just not being close to the people I loved scared me the most. I heard once in the "Advise to the Class of '99" that you should wear sunscreen, but also it said to do something everyday that scares you. I remember thinking now why would I do that? Who wants to be scared, so from then on I tried it but after a while it was hard to find things that I was afraid of, I then realized that is why he said that, conquering your fears is something that everyone should do everyday. The world would become unimaginable. But the key is to find something of a worthy cause to master, and when that happens the world won't have a choice but to get better. Fear, can engulf every fiber of your being. It can just over take every aspect of your life. Its really a quite powerful tool, and I think that is why people need to learn how to harness it by doing good. Fear is a good thing if used correctly, if you have no fear, and you just go for everything, your life will come to an end much quicker than someone who's life was thought through and such. Lets take fear of being rejected for an example. I think the most important thing is to not let them see you down. Let them know that what they did to you didn't affect them in the least. You are the, not the bigger person exactly, but you are the person who will, go farther who can do more for the world. Someone who will be the next president of your chess club, your church, the united states. Someone who can control the emotions we are blessed with is someone who will one day become great human beings. Even if they are just in charge of their own children those children will learn something from them, and they will teach their children who will teach their children and so on. It's a never ending cycle that we all live in. The Circle Of Life. Its so worth all the trouble from that one person from that one rejection. Just do it! Things will change people!
