I'm Back...ish.

Well Ladies and Gentlemen I have been very very much a slacker lately. I have not written in..a while. And here is my theories from now on. I did this blog mainly cause it was therapeutic to write and get out all that I was feeling and to the lucky few that I actually told about it they would read and understand where I'm coming from a little bit more then any other Tom, Dick and Harry. So since I haven't been writing lately is because I don't need to much therapy so I am deciding right now that you are my therapy blog. I still want to call you just long enough, cause it is a sick name, but also because I still have the same ideals about life in general I still want to live just long enough to make difference. Just now I won't write about it everyday..unless I have a major crisis and I totally thinking about making this anonymous. In fact I think I might..but yeah anyway, I have took the stupid plunge and am going to homecoming with Richard. A boy that I have known FOREVER! and has also liked me FOREVER, so I figured I would go with him, he is a sweetheart, and it is going to be alot of fun especially since we are going with a fun group! So that is the most recent/big news. My dress is blue and flowy. (I made sure it was flowy so that I don't look too fat. Great right?) But you know that feeling that you are going to make someone else jealous? Haha well I feel that way..only sometimes though, I think I genuinely want to go, but it is going to be a lot of fun to look hott in front of a certain someone. You know you all have done it, wanted to make someone jealous, even if it has been...4 weeks. But I really am ok now when I think about him I don't get that stupid feeling in the pit of my stomach. I use to get that all the time anytime I would even think about it. and It freakin sucks. Now though, it doesn't matter cause I am OVER IT! A wise women once told me to put the word "next" on my mirror the day Nicklas broke up with me I put it right up there, and it has defiantly given me strength. Well keep it up people. Stay strong. Heck stay alive, and you'll be doing great. Till next time.